No Spoons Out Here is a series of Polaroid photographs and drawings and writing documenting my pursuit of a mid-life gender transition in the Lower Mainland region of B.C. Most of my life, every time I had an occasion to make a wish, I wished to become a woman, whether by magic or, a next life. I emerged from this impossibility though, forging a new life after coming out as queer in 2022 at the age of 41. I found a job in B.C. and flew from London, Ontario to Vancouver, staying with family until I found a small laneway apartment above a garage prone to blazing orange suburban sunsets.
These images attempt to articulate a new self and show the calculated negotiation still necessary to assert one’s transgender identity in most places in Canada today. I am extremely grateful for this project to be supported by the Canada Council for the Arts.
